“Love is not a feeling, it is an ability.”First of all, I know this story is gonna be very long..but at least please try to read my story so you can get some ideas about soul mates and secret love. Enjoy reading! I remember this guy back when we’re still in fourth grade let’s call him in the name of Mr.Genius (coz his very good in Math). So my story goes like this. First day of school, I meet my old friends and some new classmates. Our class adviser decided to arrange our seats. He seats in front of me. We still don’t know each other that time. The second day, the teacher told us to get 10 sheets of pad paper for our penmanship folder, then the guy seating in front of me offered to give me ten sheets of pad paper, he was kinda friendly to me, but I said no thanks coz I have my own. The next few days, he was friendly to me and we talked to each other, get to know more about each other, and I noticed that when I arrive at school he was there talking with his guy friends and when he saw me arrive, he suddenly will go to his seat. These time I was thinking that this Mr. Genius guy likes me because I saw some obvious signs where in a guy is doing when he likes a girl. But, that time I wasn’t that into things like crushes or simply boyfriends thingy. That time I already knew that Mr.Genius likes me, so I was thinking of a way so he would not like me anymore, then I start to be rude to him, and I start to avoid him. One time when we were having our Chinese calligraphy class, he’s jacket was placed at the back of his chair. Then suddenly I accidentally brushed my Chinese brush onto his jacket, leaving a big black mark on his jacket. I’m so shocked and don’t know what to do, because I know if he found out he’ll be mad at me. So I decided to just sit quietly and continue writing. Later he found out, then he asked me if I was the one who did that, I said it wasn’t me, because I was afraid to tell him. Then he got mad at me and told his friends about it. The first quarter has ended and the teacher again decided to change our seat plan, this time it was me who was seating in front of him. It was like every time if the teacher is going to change our seat plan, he is always near me. That time when I accidentally put Chinese ink into his jacket, from then on don’t talk to each other anymore, few weeks past, we began to develop shyness between the two of us. Every time I’m gonna pass near him, I noticed that he is trying to avoid me. When we were in fifth grade, I don’t know what was happening to me, but soon I just realized that I have feelings for him (It’s just really weird), so that time I don’t know what I was doing, I black texted him, and in one of our text he asked me if I was interested in him and I said I was..(I don’t know what I’m doing that time, right know I’m thinking back that time were I confessed to him that I like him, It makes me feel that I’m totally a foolish girl.) But soon he knew that it was me and I was so ashamed, don’t know what to do because he is telling his friends that I confessed to him that I like him. By the way, his friend’s brother and my brother know each other and they were both friends, so it means Mr.Genius Guy knows my brother and my brother knew everything that I was doing, and I felt very ashamed. I just wish I didn’t do that anymore. When we were in sixth grade, Mr.Genius guy has a crush on a girl. Just so you know, Mr.Genius guy is a playboy. This Mr.Genius guy has a friend, and his friend has a crush on my friend. His friend knew that I like Mr.Genius. So his friend told me that if I would agree to spy on my friend and he to will spy on Mr.Genius and tell me more about him. Then I agreed. He asked Mr.Genius if he is still interested in me, and Mr.Genius guy said that he has liked me back when we were still in fourth grade until now (sixth grade) (that time he likes a girl, me and genius guy are not classmates anymore in sixth grade.) When there is a batch program or when I’m walking at the hallways or at the corridors, sometimes we cross pass each other and I saw that he stares at me and suddenly look back, he is totally shy too. We haven’t talk for almost 2 and a half yrs. already because we were not classmates. And it’s almost our graduation so I decided to ask him if I could have his graduation pic, he was really shy, and I notice him blushing, and he said yes. Now, that I’m a freshmen, sometimes we cross pass each other and sometimes he look at my eyes so deeply, like he wants to say something, we try to act normal to each other. Sometimes I realize that my fate is testing me, because often we saw each other in the same places. And until now I still has a crush on him, even though he has hurt me a lot of times, I keep on telling myself that I’m not gonna like this person anymore and I’m gonna forget him already, but this feeling I have for him still does not fade away and keeps coming back. I still have this one question on my mind..Does he still like me?
You wouldn’t think that a 12 year old and a 17 year old would fall in love huh? It was a hot summer day….no it was 4th of July. I was getting ready to go to my temple (gurdwara), i quickly combed my hair and put on my white suit and we headed towards the gurdwara. I sat in the Langar Hall (place in the temple where food is served) with my friend. I saw him coming towards me and then he asked me for my e-mail adress and I gave it to him…I had known this guy from a long time ago…i used to live in the same neighborhood as him. I was very young when we used to play outside together along with many other kids. I was 8 years old when i first had a crush on him but then i had to move to another part of the suburbs in 4th grade. My heart was broken when my family and I moved away from him. But i met him again on 4th of July. As soon as i got home on that day, i checked my e-mail and we started to talk online.Then all of the sudden he asked me out….and i said yes instantly. That was my most amazing day ever. I was 12 and he was 17…he thought i was older because i looked older to him. When we started to talk on the phone, he asked me many questions and after 2 years of our relationship, we kissed.Pretty late huh? Well during those two years we went through a lot…we had our ups and downs but in the end…we were always together. Today i am 14 years old and my name is Manpreet. That boy’s name is Raj, he is 19 today. In our religion, when you put vermillon (sindoor) on a girl’s forehead, she’s considered your wife and from that day and on…you are considered to be married. On August 11th, 2009 he put vermillon on my forehead…and we were married. We knew so much about each other…In those two years we got to know each other so well that we trusted and still so trust each other more than anybody in the world. In our culture, everybody believes in castes even though our god said that there shouldn’t be any castes. I’m from a low caste and Raj is from a higher caste…there’s a 5 years of difference between us and yet we still are together today. It’s hard to believe isn’t it? It’s your choice to believe if this story is true or not…we have a site that we made please visit www.2heartz1soul.webs.com to know more about our love and why we are made for each other. Love…you can’t define it..you have to fall in love to know what it is
I met this guy two weeks ago and I can’t really tell that,is already a love story because until now we don’t have a middle and ending. He is my chat mate up to now we always talk and see each other using web cam. I was feeling alone and a prisoner of my promise to my ex boyfriend that I will never leave him even though I don’t love him when I first talked to David (not his real name). David made me cry the first time we talked when I open everything to him and told me I should leave my ex if really don’t love my ex so I can be happy. Because of that i left my ex and I give all my time to him. My ex couldn’t accept it up to now but I don’t care I already found the guy who made me feel complete. He was divorced six months ago and he can’t trust anyone after what happened to his past relationship. Everyday we always see to it that we talked and see each other before letting another day past. Oftentimes I felt like I’m the one who was courting him. On that short period of time I fell in love with him and that was the first time I admitted to myself that I am in love and ready to take risk just to be with him. He also said he feels the same way too but I know for myself that I love him more than he loves me “that if he really loves me”. David was the opposite of the guy that I wanted because he is working in a military, we have different nationality, he has a light skin which I really hate because i also have it, he is very good looking that can make me feel insecure and unsecured if ever, I cant even touch him because his the other side og the globe but still I know I want to be with him no matter what. I never thought that I’m beautiful because of what my family said about me that I’m not that pretty compare to them. But when he came to my world things had changed i gained confidence and changed my image. I am not ashame to say that I’m beautiful because he keeps telling me that I’m beautiful if I said no I’m not he will surely get mad. I woke up every morning wishing he has a message for me and I always have. Everything goes smoothly and loving him more deeply each passing days. He use to be my listener and most of the time he can read my mind he knows what I’m thinking and he can make things bright and light for me. We are sharing our pictures, sweet thoughts and bad experiences we had. I’m on his world and his with mine also even he is at the other side of the globe. But now we have a problem his ex wife wants to see and talk to him and asking to give her another chance. I’m here I can’t see what is happening at the other side of the globe. He doesn’t want to see her not because he doesn’t want to be with her but he is afraid what might happen. When I knew it my brain stopped functioning, my heart was aching, my body was frozen, my hand can’t press any letter in my keyboard and that was the first time i felt that way what people called “jealous” and so worried to lose him. This is the beginning of our story we haven’t talk I just left a message informing him how I feel about it and why I want him to see his ex. I know from the bottom of my heart that I really love him and willing to accept everything just to make sure he will be happy. And I’m not going to let my self incomplete without holding him and telling him how much I love him while I’m in front of him staring to his perfect features. Now I know that nothing is impossible. No need for you to hold someone before you can say you love him. That’s why there were a lot of literally blind people out there felt in love without seeing the person they love. Knowing that he is always here I know I will always have the reason to wake up with smile on my face while facing the challenging world with enough strength coming from him. |
